Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Thursday, December 25, 2008
P.S. that's not PG :):
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
But I'm sure this damned thing is faulty. Sitting around for ten hours of my sentence, suddenly this "Custodian" added 8h 34 mins to my time. Crazy cheapo electronics. But after I saw the chairs they use, what else to expect :).
My time went already up by 1 /3 after the first day. And I did not even provoke it or developed any suit dependency syndrome :). But probably I will have some time to think about this...
Good thing *shameless promotion*, Cool Viewer has beed updated to 22.214.171.124 Release 35 including backported Mono. It's pratical when IM conversations last only for 2 lines *giggles*
Monday, October 20, 2008
Time was right, I was just coming back from a walk to the lake and spit out the chewing gum on that police car. Not that it would really matter as it was already sprayed all over. Same as the Detention Center in Stanlee.
But they seemed they were just waiting for me. Searching me and blaming me for vandalising the sim *shrugs*. As if that would be my fault. And they could not even find the red spray can. But I know who did it :P.
I got caught, transfered to this new "Rehabilitation Center" or Alter Technologies how the evil call themselves. I don't really know what happend. Was all too fast. They took my money, they injected me some nanoprobes and when I woke up still dizzy these gangsters put some remote control in a helmet on me. Custodian they call it. I remember this word somehow from a distant past. Still can not really make sense of it.
So I tried to find a way back home....my view is blur. But I found the lake again.
There I'm sitting now, in Stanlee, Home of the Latex and Bane Dolls....waiting for the things to come. Feel free to drop by, but don't expect me to say hello. Somehow they managed to seal my mouth :).
B-8644 (that weird new name they gave me)
Thursday, October 9, 2008
I reworked a lot of old rules, to eliminate potential drama, and to give us a better, flat structure. To enjoy to be a sister again.
Come and take a look, our home is located at Bedroom Bound - Home of the Latex Dolls, Stanlee (213, 198, 38).
Luv, Boy - M1
Friday, August 29, 2008
For the moment, there is only one thing that is important.
A great lady, a good friend, a wonderful person disappeared at 8 August from SL. Mitzy Shino. You may know her as the one behind Bedroom Bound and/or as one of the restless persons to make SL a better place for all.
Mitzy, you are gone for 3 weeks now. There are a lot of people who miss you and who care for you. You did not leave a trace. Please, if you can, give a sign of life. We miss you!!!
Boy, in the name of all.
[Update] 2 Sept: Mitzy disappeared today from groups and search, that happens when one gets banned from SL :(
She is back. Thanks all who cared.
It's a rollercoaster ride for me....Ingrid Breck is gone. I should just take my head and put it somewhere in the sand hiding.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Not much of a choice I had, no TP pad around and Miss Pixi with a tazer in her hand, I followed her orders. She was a little bit busy and I thought she did not notice, so I used the short time to hack into the warden's laptop on the table and I think I could remove the traces of my criminal record. At least I hope.
Somehow she must have seen it, or she just followed the normal process? Miss Dawn was requested to unlock my collar and it was replaced with a special prison collar. I have no clue what that thing can do. Miss Pixi tried to lock me in a cell besides Dawn to let me wait for the prison's warden, Miss Carlotta, to decide about my fate.
Again, she was not careful enough and when she opened the door I used the chance to run away... I made it to the second floor, and got trapped in a rat infested corner. An easy catch for Miss Pixi who put me on a leash in no time.
I'm still there now, together with my friend, the rat. Not sure if it is always the same tho. Perhaps I should give it a name. Waiting for Miss Carlotta to come and turn a detainee in a prisoner. I'm afraid my actions were enough to replace the record I tried to delete :).
Prisoner 239 to be
Saturday, June 7, 2008
I posted what I did in Darien's blog. http://dariencaldwell.wordpress.com/2008/04/28/lls-secret-shame-finale/
Here is a crossposting (the important thing is the telephone number):
> My account got disabled too yesterday. Luckily I could call them
> after one day and it was reactivated. Still puzzled what happend
> but I withdrew 500USD to my Paypal account which is in my
> SL name. It did not work in the first time. I got a mail from LL
> that I would have to change my profile information which I did
> and which probably led to my ban.
>> We were unable to process your payout request due to lack of
>> valid payment information. Please go to “update payment
>> method” on secondlife.com to re-enter the payment information
>> before requesting> another payout.
>> Warm Regards,
>> Linden Lab Billing
> Searching in Google and forums revealed that accounts are
> disabled on a daily basis without any explanation given. So be very
> very careful what you do. For me I will not put any money
> anymore in SL. For all who can not call a US toll free number
> internationally, try this one I got from their billing: 703-342-0602
> I wish nobody that such thing happens. It is scary, disturbing,
> damaging. It feels terrible. They can kill avatars and people so
> Boy Lane said this on April 29, 2008 at 10:46 pm
Friday, May 23, 2008
This ex-bane has recovered almost from its sentence. (Letting the RL things drift away and enjoying the RP part of it). KTI decided to hire me, somehow they thought my experience would be worth to give me a job. So I work as an operator now for Dr. Kelley. It was quite a change, to be suddenly on the other side, to be in control of banes. Of someone I was a short time ago myself.
I've been in control before, nothing really new. I hope I can be a good operator to the ones who are lucky enough to be online on the waiting list when I am around. I try to give something back I have learned. So banes of Op Lane, consider yourself lucky *smile*.
But there are these other things, these.....these things I overheard. They tell people about their 100% success rate. These guys in charge of KTI. But then, there are the rumours, that banes disappeared. I was threatend one day myself even. And the rumours about the secret labs, where they develop all these high tech things.
I know, I can not prove it, but I signed this non-disclosure agreement. And someone, someone I know, she forced me, she forced me to tell her what I know. I did not want to do it, she let me know choice *bites on her tongue*. I could not live with it. I think I build a not too bad reputation in the short time as operator. So I turn myself in to the KTI security *shivers*.
Probably they will allow me only to finish monitoring the 5 banes I have out there, KTI has too less stuff and they are bloodsuckers. After this, I don't know. I heard the SLBI may be involved now, too close connections to KTI. They look for more in my history. And we all have that dirty thing hidden... Likely I will have to go to jail. Not much I could do. I am in danger...
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Friday, May 9, 2008
I only hope I can get out of it this weekend. And I hope I can go out gracefully with rping out. Mitzy was unable to do it she said. I will be patient after that long time or at least I will try. It was so much, it has a strong meaning for me. Still I am scared and don't know what will happen next. I want out and I want to stay in. I know there is another life out there waiting, it will be not the one I left. But I hope at least some of my old friends are still there. Some are gone...
10 hours on the timer and I added some violations. I am scared to get out.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
I reflected a lot about myself. Good, bad, horrible things. I am no angel, I never was. I am through all levels, from being an abused slave up to M7 in LBD. I have seen all. I know all. I know how people react, behave, hurt, damage. I am done with that. Completely done. Nobody will ever hurt me again that way.
The last two days I only got my time down. Some network problems added 4x 30 mins up and a warning from my operator. But nothing serious. My custodian still hates me and rebooted a 5th or 6th or who knows how many times. I keep going, it will be soon over. Today I am at 21 days.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
I spoke to Dolma, I was cheating. But I had to do it. We talked long. She has her heart on the right side and was virtually holding my hand so many times, calming me down and cheering me up. I hurt her to kick her from my friendslist with all the others in my despair; if that is the right word. I hurt her probably badly. I got her back as a friend and I promise to never hurt her again. I hope I can talk to Elaine too.
I try to fix my life. I try to get myself straight. To stay with the real friends I have, not the ones who pretend to. I can not trust easily anymore.
Hold it against me that I write what is important for me. Some have done that before. It is only about me. And it is about the ones I feel close to, the ones I can open myself to and the ones I love. You are part of me and I hope I can be part of you. That is all what is important. That is all what counts.
Coventina hugged me as close as she could get in an offline IM. I hope you will be there for a real hug soon. I love you!
286h done / 47h left
Monday, May 5, 2008
We talked about why I went into banishment, why I upped the time so much. I wanted to withdraw from it all, run away, hide. I still want and I am not getting anyhow better. I am empty. It just sucks. I was thinking about the things that happend. I am in SL for one year now and I am through so many up and downs. There are a number of people that were very important for me, people I was close to, people I loved, and people I lost.
Kamila was my first Miss, my friend, my love. We spent every day together, mostly in Deitide. I was young in SL. She opened my eyes for so many things. We were together for more than 2 months. We almost partnered. Then one day she just told me she found someone else. In SL and RL. The story was not really good. Perhaps she was afraid of getting too close. I will probably never find out. But I will always carry you in my heart. A world broke down for me. I was running around for weeks like an idiot, hanging around at BD ranch, desperate, lonely. I met a couple of wannabies, was abused by an asshole. Upside down for months.
Then one day, MissLida, I bumped into you in the little shop of kink. You were just standing there in a corner, said some nasty things to me to gain my attention. I almost burned you *smile*. Later we met, we talked and we got close to each other. I met someone else shortly before and I was not sure what to do. I decided with you for you. You became my second Mistress. But you were at the other end of the world, we did not see very often. I was exploring other things in the meantime. And I decided to become a Latex Doll. You released me as this was required. Months later, a lot of crap had happend with the dolls, I went back to you and you accepted me a second time as yours without asking questions. You will always be my Mistress, forever. Eventhough we barely have time to meet. I love you Mistress. I'm sorry if I hurt you and for all the trouble I caused.
Elaine and Dolma, you are two LD sisters precious to me. I know I did many things wrong, you were always there to try to help me, to de-escalate, to talk to people. You tried to get me back, to get that silly ban lifted. It did not work, too much hate and unforgivingness. I thank you for all what you have done for me. In the end it comes down to the one word, respect. I did a hard cut with the Latex Dolls. I kicked almost all from my friendslist and you were amongst them. I did it to get over it, not because I hated you. But I lost you as well doing so. You will always be sisters for me. I wish you all the very best and perhaps one day things may change. Perhaps a spark of hope is left.
Ingrid, you are very special to me. I don't build things but I felt very close to you, seems we are very similar. We share an unpleasant path. You said once I polarize people. So do you, love and hate, pleasure and pain. You invited me to join LBD after the three months I worked hard in Latexia. I became a Latex Bondage Doll. A new world opened for me. I was allowed to do things, to actively work for the group. I put all my energy and love in LBD, the group started really to live, with many new and old people flowing in. We got new uniforms, we got new land, we got new rules. It was hard work. Very hard work. I did not realize I hurt others by pushing to hard. To try to get things done. I was too busy to see that big drama boiling up behind my back. What happend in the end, I lost my home, LBD, and I lost you as a friend. I did not want to hurt anyone. I did not want to do any harm. I wished I could turn back the clock. LBD will always be in my heart. I love you sister.
Winter, we met in LBD, you are a great girl, you have so fantastic ideas, you do such a great work. Somehow we connected very early and we spent our time together. We did our 48h trial together in one cage, when reading the Eudeamon story. And as if it would be a coincidence, Katrina's Eudeamon has the same name as you. I became MDoll in LBD. I had thrown myself into work. I was busy and did not see my girl waiting for me. You made the new uniform and everybody got crazy about it. Nobody could wait, all were pushing you. I tried to buffer but one day it all went overboard. I was in the middle. And I lost you. I lost you for this f***ing uniform. God damn! Things went quiet. We met later again, and we are still good friends. I wish you the best of luck with Melody.
Trine, you are a very old dear friend. We had fun together like children playing with dragons, we had fun together working as dancer and escort. I shared my small home with you. All for a very long time, on and off. We met again not so a long time ago, we did something we had not done before *smile*. We knew for so long but we never thought we could be made for each other. You became my wife, I became yours. It was the happiest day of my whole SL. Perhaps we were too fast. I could not hold up with your expectations. I had too many problems on my own. We drifted apart. One day you just left me. Left in love, left in peace. To let me get my things fixed which I could not do till today. I am so sorry honey. I love you dearly. Be well and have more luck in all what you touch in the future! I do not deserve you.
Coventina, I miss you so terribly. You rescued me. You gave me hold. You protected me. You shielded me. You gave me a new home. You and Mychelle gave me a family. I was so happy and so proud, after all the months of drama behind me. I did not want to be dominant anymore, I think I failed miserably in it. I just wanted to be the little sub I am deep in my heart. I gave myself to you in LBD as SDoll. I needed a break from it all so badly. But it grew much bigger. I became your doll, your girl, for my whole second life. We spoke to MissLida and I was so happy I could have both of you, without conflict. You were my Mistress. You were my center and without you I would have possibly pulled the plug. The day I went into banishment you left me. I am still puzzled what really happend. I love you. I need you. I hope I did not lose you too, like all the others.
I could barely stand what happend the last two months. I am still hiding in my banishment. I don't know what will happen if it is finally over. Emptiness prevails, but hope dies last.